To find without looking

When walking on a beach or a forest trail, I am generally scouting the ground for two kinds of rocks: rocks with stripes or heart-shaped rocks. Invariably, a find feels like a gift.

This morning in Truro I wasn’t looking but found a heart-shaped rock anyway — one of the best I’ve ever come across.

This being the morning of opening statements in the election interference case against trump in Manhattan, I take the stone to mean something positive — a sign that justice might in fact be coming, coming for a nation starved for it.

Morning on the Cape
Sharp spring light
Provincetown

The wind was bracing on the Cape this weekend but my time away with a friend was relaxing nonetheless. We snacked. Walked. Read. Wrote Postcards to Voters. Not a second of TV for two whole days!

On Saturday, I finished North Woods by Daniel Mason, a challenging and extraordinary read that I might put in the same category as The Overstory, in no small part because trees feature so centrally.

The novel takes place over several hundred years in Western Mass where one piece of property in the so-called North Woods is the connecting link between various sequential stories. There are twin girls undone by jealousy. A painter who loves another man and pays the price for that. A mother with a schizophrenic son, forever holding out hope that he will somehow straighten himself out even as he frantically wanders the land, believing his footsteps are stitching the ground and keeping it pieced together.

Chestnut trees come and go. An apple orchard is planted and then goes to ruin. Elm and hemlock suffer from blight or invasive insects and vanish. Mountain lions and passenger pigeons disappear too.

The haunting spirits of people who came before affect subsequent residents to a greater or lesser degree. As my husband said, “It’s essentially a ghost story.”

Yes. And perhaps the central ghost story is the one produced by the land itself. Earlier incarnations of nature haunt the landscape with what came before, producing a sense of profound loss.

Road near where my parents built a house

Because I grew up in Western Mass (sort of), I felt an especially strong connection to the setting. I could see those fields, those trail heads, the banks of snow.

Buffy and me. 1974? Jiminy Peak visible.

Since the Berkshires might be the only place that has ever felt like home to me, the stories made me miss the place. Or the feeling of the place. Or my youth. I guess it’s complicated even though it’s an old and widely-shared story.

Schenectady, early 60’s

And then, because the climate crisis has produced terrifying evidence of the planet’s warming, the descriptions of blizzards (so many blizzards!) caused an acute nostalgia for a vanishing world. Not just dying plants and creatures, but the disruption of seasons and the loss of habitability. In other words, the book prompts mourning not just for our particular past, but for humanity’s collective past.

I’ll be thinking about this story for a while.

One of three ponds near my old house

9 thoughts on “To find without looking

  1. Nancy

    From the first pics…I felt the ‘missing’ coming on. You had me remembering vacations up the coast to beloved places (one of which I had just received an email from)…to trees coming and going – many I’ve known…to places in my late teens – early 20’s (fresh on my mind as I’d just watched a video about Bonanza’s location in Tahoe – an old stomping ground)…changing weather, childhood self…I bet you will be thinking of that book for some time! Thanks for sharing here.

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  2. Nancy

    Nah, lived on the other side of the Sierras, in the Carson Valley…but went up to “the lake” during that time. Late 1970’s – early 1980’s…just having a big booming influx of new folks, but still so beautiful.

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  3. Doris Tennant

    The story of North Woods is haunting. I guess I think if I dwell on what you described long enough I might be excused from reading North Woods and dwelling in the utter sadness. Yet I know there has to be beauty in the story because even a world in devastation has its beauty.

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  4. Liz A

    love the Provincetown ART … it called to mind a long-ago high school classmate who became a potter on the Cape … Ann Clarke Gerrity … what a wondrous life she made for herself

    and the old photos … along with the North Woods book review … both put me in mind of the video Nancy posted on Pomegranate Trail … I’m feeling nostalgic

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