Category Archives: writing

It’s out of the teens and — poop?

It’s out of the teens but still pretty cold. The upstairs furnace is dying and never kicked on last night. I can hear it trying. Ken usually rises before I do and today is no exception. Before he heads down to make coffee, he slides the curtains open making the metal ring-clips go clickety clack.

“Fire up my blanket,” I say from under the comforter.

That would be my electric blanket. The greatest new possession since the Dyson battery-operated stick vacuum arrived.

Today’s the reading at Newtonville Bookstore. I’m pretty excited. Thank you all again for your words of encouragement.

And there’s this. Boulder Bookstore. Notice anything? D. took these pix yesterday.

PS is there something wrong with me that I fully expected to see the constipated cow on All Creatures Great and Small take a massive and relieving dump and was disappointed to be denied? Yes. The answer is yes. But you know what? I was properly pleased to hear Maddow announce recently that she has an eight-year-old’s sense of humor and will forever find poop references funny. “And farts!” I might’ve said aloud to the TV.

PPS The other time I recently responded out loud to the TV was when that river cruise ad came on. “Shut her up!” You know the one that plays before PBS programming? I swear the announcer has a fake British accent. It’s a win if we get it muted before she says, “iconic landscapes.” Ugh.

PPPS. Best screen moment yesterday was reading this letter. Maybe it’s only a delay, BUT IT MATTERS.

Gifts of cloth and attention

This beautiful shirt (you may have seen on FB or Instagram) was made by my friend Lisa up in Maine. She’s really talented. She knew I wanted to wear indigo to the book reading this weekend and just whipped this shirt up using katazome indigo from a workshop we attended together this past summer (blogged about here).

And that’s not all. She was a beta reader who read the entire manuscript. And that’s not all. She’s driving down from Maine to hear me read at NEWTONVILLE BOOKS this Sunday (Jan 26 at 2:00).

My mother was her art teacher in high school and her father taught me history. We go way back. Our brothers are very close friends.

Some scribbles got typed up yesterday and emailed to Deb. Deb is what’s known as a Critical Reading Partner. Much more involved than a beta reader.

Beta readers read when you are well along. Their responses can range from chapter edits to a general “I liked it.”

In the two years leading up to Deb’s publications (PROPHETS TANGO) and mine, we exchanged chapters with regularity. To do it again with new material feels like getting back in the saddle!

Early today. When it was 5 degrees.

We made only the Oakmont/Maplewood figure eight with Finn today. It wasn’t booger-freezing cold, but almost.

It was the kind of cold you really bundle up for, but it felt normal. Normal winter weather. Something people in Florida and Georgia can’t say right now.

Go dark or ?

I guess I’m in Solnit’s camp when it comes to closing out of Zuck-accounts. She thinks letting them silence us and destroy our online networks give them a win. I personally think someone worth 200+ plus billion is not gonna miss my accounts.

Is AI gross? Yes. Does late stage capitalism have a way of degrading everything online? Yes. Are these platform vehicles for democracy-destroying lies? Yes. End-times climate denialism? Yes.

Still.

All self-published authors have to make peace with Amazon. Period. It’s that or go dark.

But I’ve made sure I’m in libraries and available in independent bookstores and on bookshop.org and a half a dozen other outlets like google play and Apple — so that people rightfully shunning the bald coward Bezos can still get my book.

Going forward, I’m ordering books for myself from bookshop.org even though it’s a pain in the ass and I now run out for my own groceries (something I pretty much stopped during during COVID).

Did you see Jeff’s gross girlfriend, BTW, with the fat MAGA lips and exposed underwear and the gross Zuckerberg staring down her bra? Gawd these people! (And no, I didn’t watch the inauguration, it just came up elsewhere).

I exited Twitter months ago and haven’t missed it. I wouldn’t miss threads either. At all. Even though Bluesky lacks … something. Engagement I guess. In that way Bluesky feels like Twitter (for me anyway) where either I was shadow banned or just not interesting enough to warrant responses. I’m saying: threads feels friendlier. I hope Bluesky improves.

Here’s another thing. Ken and I just spent the better part of last week figuring out Facebook ads for my book which is supposedly how to keep sales going. AND I have this reading this week to remind people about and everyone is going dark. Damn! I hope I’ve posted about it enough (probably).

This, by the way, doesn’t mean I don’t have enormous respect for people wiping their boards clean of these fat cats. I do.

Saw this on Bluesky today. Not bad, eh?

Lastly, with one exception the people least outwardly supportive of my book have been, wait for it … my IRL writing friends. It’s baffling. Beyond disappointing. Last night I realized that publishing a book is like losing a parent. You just don’t know who will step forward and who will sideline themselves. It’s not always what you expect.

Neighbors, family, Tuesday-call friends, Wednesday-call friends, and YOU GUYS have been stalwart and amazing and I can’t tell you how much I appreciate that fact. Thank you.

Angel Oak and SC slides

Reading at bookstore is one week from today and I’m sick to death of promoting myself.

So while supposedly creating yet another post to promote my book, I ended up getting lost in some old pix from South Carolina.

Pictures include: Newtonville Books, bullrush and Sweetgrass baskets, Boone Hall, Magnolia Plantation, Drayton Hall, Aiken Rhett House, marsh where Wappoo was located, Cawcaw interpretive center marsh, bulletin boards (Sargent painting, Mahershala Ali, Chiwetel, Ejiofor) and a few collages (couple incorporating the Door of No Return, Ghana). Angel Oak.

Dusty collarbones

You could stitch a dotted ring around an indigo moon. The houses below evidence diamonds and trefoils and zigzags, all manner of pattern. Somewhere a child bellyaches. Somewhere else an owl calls out, mournful. Haven’t we expressed all our sadnesses already? The trefoil stamp of trauma, the zigzag edge of semi-repair?

You can’t fool the moon or the lightning striping the sky at dusk.

When the red-tailed hawk screeches, we know to look up. But that’s all we know.

Make your move motherfucker is one way to respond to upcoming events on The Hill. Preemptive bullshit. Flowing like a river into microphones and screens. I wish we hadn’t needed a word like “sane-washing.” And journalists? Please! Even Carl Bernstein wishes he was still on the beat. Imagine Deep Throat withholding evidence to promote his upcoming book release.

The hawk rides the thermal climes – yes, we have thermal climes even in suburbia. If you’re really blessed and it’s a clear day, the sun will illuminate the red wedge of her tail turning feathers into stained glass.

Who you gonna call? Motherfuckers of so many ilks, it makes the head spin. To say “felon” doesn’t quite capture the in-law’s tawdry sadistic infliction of pain upon his own sister. Too bad the French won’t say, Sorry motherfucker — your visa is no good here. So many roiling nations – it’s as if our national disaster is contagious – France, South Korea, Germany, Syria. And Gaza can’t catch a break.

We look for heroes in the strangest of places. Turns out the healthcare CEO assassin comes from money and privilege. Sorry, ladies. Worse, he liked posts by the South African Dipshit Brigade.

But what of poetry you say? What of the elegant, nearly effortless dip of the hawk gliding on the air currents, currents that sweep over even your suburban rooftops? What of these expressions of grace?

The greasy bundle of vice is no longer a fluke. Not a despicable and regrettable error this time. No. Americans knew who they were voting for. Sort of.

He’s grinning in front of Notre Dame and shaking Macron’s hand like he wants to rip that man’s shoulder out of its socket. To see it is to wonder: how will I survive this? How will we survive this? Will we survive this?

Hope is a scratchy wool cape that I put on to address certain people. Underneath, endless itching. Underneath, angry red striping rashes that cannot be ignored. Underneath, deposits of body-ash and rubble-ash that floated in from Gaza. The dusty grey evidence of wickedness lines my collarbones. What washcloth is up to the task?

Get fat. Go hide. Get fat and go hide. Gather preemptive condolences for the retirement of your former self. Sputter, motherfucker, motherfucker, like somebody’s listening, like it’s a badge of honor even if no one is listening and it’s not a badge of anything.

The heat wooshes, reminding me that all the coming misery will take place on a timeline, in a framework of seasons. Does it help to think that? Does anything?