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Late April garden note

Written last week. Now: 4/28/25.

Twirls of leaves still wound tight, the hosta reach for the sun. Legions of them. Lilies of the Valley, which will annoy the gardener later in the season for their invasive vigor, in late April offer a glad carpet of green. Four daffodils — not four banks or four clumps, but exactly 4 daffodils — grow in this yard, and not even altogether. Two bloom out front next to the chimney and two bloom outback next to the tall yew.

Rhodies and euphorbia died. Rabbits ate one entire pot of purple pansies.

But oh, just look at the fluttering leaves of the Virginia Bluebells. You don’t notice them emerging — they are just suddenly up. Both delicate and hardy, their oblate leaves turn luminescent at certain hours of the morning. And they spread — not just into adjacent pockets of soil, but clear across the yard beyond the patio. Some flowers are plumbago blue, others white. I have no idea why.

The mold on the plastic gate comes off with warm water, a rag, and the occasional pass of a toothbrush where the pikes meet the cross brace. Satisfying.

A satisfying chore is by definition one that offers immediate noticeable results.

The ferns announce themselves shyly. Fronds rolled near the surface of the soil, still tightly wound like Spanish dancers who wait for the proper refrain to snap open and flutter their fans. Oh, but they will. They will, and soon.

During the week of their uncurling, their rise happens so quickly you swear you should be able to hear them growing. You will pause to shoot a video, half expecting the 15-second capture to creak and whisper.

The Montauk Daisies you stole from a teardown around the corner have settled in. Good news! You only took a dozen stalks and now wish you’d taken more. Over on Langley Road, the specimen was a veritable shrub, so hardy, so thriving! May this little clump go crazy and grow shrub-like too!

Hyacinth flop under the weight of their almost obscene beauty. You therefore feel no compunction about snapping the fallen stalks and bringing them indoors where their signature scent perfumes the kitchen from the windowsill. Such a heady smell!

Other things will not get done now. Closet clearing, quilt binding, postcard writing. Why? Because the soil needs replenished near the astilbe. Because that invasive mallow needs digging up near the side gate. Because the Rose of Sharons need pruned and the liatris thinned. You still haven’t finished snapping all the ghostly gray stalks off the sedum yet.

It’s the call of nature, improbable and yet present even here in suburbia. We measure the strength of its siren lure by how TO DO lists are never required for its multiplicity of tasks. We ignore the indoor TO DO lists with a decisive abandon.

Now excuse me. I need to go move a few artemisia.

Insomnia post

The top of this quilt ended too abruptly so I laid out some additional edging. I love that vintage pink floral silk! CapeCod Shibori is the source for the indigo sky, a polyester blouse from the 80’s (I’m guessing) for the grey foreground. Other garments appear as well. There’s batting and backing behind the central rectangle so I’m gonna have to figure out how to even up the layers.

Paris Collage Club prompt flowers with photo of quilt

The squirrel got back in. Two guys came back and found the entry point and you know what? It surprised me. I don’t know what it says about my state of mind but I fully expected them to be baffled and to shrug and walk away, problem unsolved.

The garden needs dirt. Everywhere. Probably because we got so much rain and so little snow last season.

I started PT for my hip today and have my fourth acupuncture appointment on Friday. Goals? To be able to squat and weed the garden and get in and out of the car without wincing. Ditto: up and off the couch.

Tomorrow, SCOTUS will hear the presidential immunity arguments. You know the case. The one they could have heard back in December when Jack Smith appealed directly. The one they could have scheduled a month or more ago. The frivolous argument by trump doesn’t need to have merit because he’s getting what he needs through delay. There simply is no good faith interpretation of the Court’s actions. There just isn’t. It’s sickening.

Today the Court heard discussions of how many organs a woman might have to lose before an ER doctor can provide her health care under Idaho law.

And I wonder why I’m depressed.

Paper collage from months back
Another older paper collage
PCC prompt
Old paper collage

Eclipse day ramble

Noon eclipse day. Stock on. Bird bought after blood draw. How steady I am cutting the onion, the potatoes! I find the joint between thigh and breast easily as my heart is light, my knife sharp.

I walk the dog and I am not alone. Newton is a construction site and still I am grateful. My shirt is white, my heart intact, my teeth stay in my head. I am walking the dog in beauty, finding the joint in beauty. Picking up the catalpa pods that fell last fall, I am feeling useful if a bit stiff. The ends of the green beans get swept into the stock pot, but one rogue bean entire tries to hide in my apron pocket. My apron is triangular, drapey and in it I look like a small circus tent with feet.

And yet I am grateful. How one sunny warm day will change everything. Two nights ago, furnace on the blink (I told you so, dear husband), two heating pads fired up on full, I curl under blankets and wonder will I ever be warm again and then this day. This day, when the moon will pass between us and the sun — spooky, amazing, and rare. We won’t get totality, because I like my miracles to be convenient, but soon we will be in the presence of a kind of magic anyway, a magic that informs us that we are not the boss.

What a relief to not be the boss!

Do you have a high powered charging cable? Some days that’s all that matters. Today walking the dog three steps behind my husband (because: my hip. because: he doesn’t take instruction well), I feel how thoroughly I am like my mother! Today she inhabits me in my gray button down shirt, white sneakers, short hair — Mom in her relaxed Florida phase.

Will I get a relaxed phase? One where I stop giving a shit what other people think? One where it is permissible to exhale exhale exhale knowing the Nazis are crawling back under their rocks? A phase when some important things have been finished and I’m ready to do other things —things possibly important and possibly not?

The dog sinks to the floor in an exhale. There’s a lesson in that. One about surrender.

Gravity waves are a thing — did you know? And did you know that they are hard to study because no one can predict when they will appear with one notable exception. They are always present during eclipses.

So at 2:15 or so I’ll sit on the front lawn and don my glasses, and open up everything of who I am but effortlessly, like the dog sinking to the floor with a sigh. Is that even possible? The world will go slightly dark and we will be changed momentarily by gravity waves.

Meanwhile the chicken stock boils and there will be risotto with three kinds of mushrooms tomorrow, which is another testament to my mother who never prepared risotto but was an excellent cook.

This body. This day. A braid of: my mother, my own gladness, the relief at not being the boss, the smell of chicken stock on the stove. A short yelp of hallelujah is in order.

April 2023 in Haiku

Museum of Fine Arts, Boston

4/1
Needham Street empty
even on a Saturday.
One of rain’s blessings.

4/2
Sedum clumped with leaves.
I pick them out, snap old stalks,
revealing green buds.

4/3
Mouse turds, balsam, dust.
A page from 9/11.
“I begin to cry.”

4/4
Stupid blonde Nazi
lasted only ten minutes.
I love New Yorkers!

4/5
Cars parked down the street.
The prayers have likely begun.
Gathering again.

4/6
We talk at the curb.
Three out of five in slippers.
The power’s gone out.

The power comes back
with a whoosh, click, and a hum.
Finn barks his head off.

4/7
I forgot my phone.
How can I feel this naked?
The dog doesn’t care.

4/8
Tennessee Justins —
Galvanizing, beautiful.
Their fire inspires.

4/9
Critter annoys us
storing nuts between the joists
living his best life.

4/10
Fifty-five by one.
Today the bird bath goes out.
Flapping joy to come.

4/11

Always in clumps, some
open, some closed, some pale, some
like neon butter.

4/12

Ruby maple buds
litter the ground. Strewn jewels
or kid’s cereal?

4/13
Buzzing, insistent
on the wrong side of the glass.
Hello bumblebee!

4/14
The canopy starts
to assert itself. Green fuzz,
promises of shade.

4/15
The lake holds the sky
and somehow our wishes too.
You don’t have to ask!

4/16
In my dream I sew
a go bag. Indigo lace.
Again. And for what?

4/17
Mary Oliver
lauds idleness. Someone though
was busy writing.

4/17 Bonus
Crowds out in the rain,
screaming, clapping. Obiri
pulls out for the win.

4/18
Jayland Walker ran.
Cops shot him forty-six times.
Handcuffed a dead man.

4/19
If a woman says
she has a UTI, then
she has one. The end.

4/20
To rake liatris
is to feel satisfaction.
The mop free of leaves.

4/21
No forsythia
this year. Temperatures too weird.
Will yellow return?

4/22
Twitter is trash now.
Second monied narcissist
ruining stuff. Sigh.

4/23
Too cold and rainy
for the loop. Instead we make
the figure eight. Wet!

4/24
Bluebells. Chill air. Mud.
Soon the ferns will stretch upwards
with glorious speed.

4/25
New rock wall. New deck.
Second floor ready for joists.
Changes on our route.

4/26  three today
Fresh mulch scents my block.
Animal. Woody. Have I
ever loved a horse?

Clunk and whoosh, the T
goes under the Langley bridge.
I find a penny.

New Yorkers have known.
The very day the law changed,
Carroll filed her suit.

4/27
“Share something she said.”
Years of writing together
yield jewel after jewel.

4/28
Zooey Zephyr holds
her mike high, a new symbol
of the resistance.

4/29
Who lives in that house —
the one where father then son
killed themselves. Such grief!

It’s warm enough now
for the lake project to plant.
Sweetspire! Young maples!

4/30
How many rain beads
does it take to turn tulips
into a Queen’s crown?

Tuesday. It’s Tuesday.

In thinking about how my snapshot of days through haiku differs from my usual blog posts, I realized that the short form doesn’t allow room for complaint or self-denigration. I might do too much of both as a rule.

So here’s to a fresher, more immediate style of blog posting.

With K at the office today, I can watch Kimmel at lunch without restraint.

I made too many lentils for last night’s linguine/lentil dish, so I may be on the hunt for a good lentil burger recipe this afternoon.

Finn did not bark at Winnie today. Winnie did not bark at Finn.

I don’t know why but watching a squirrel cross the sidewalk with an apple core in her mouth this morning filled me with gladness.

Trout lily’s up. Solomon seal is not. Will I or won’t I see a jack-in-the-pulpit this year? The suspense. Virginia bluebells have spread — how nice!

Going to California for three weeks next month and early June. Given that it was 27 degrees here yesterday and that the weather in LA seems to have calmed down, I can’t wait.

Of course, it’s not about the weather.

Finished round 8 or 10 or who’s counting anymore of my novel. Cut around 5,000 words. But not enough. So later today I will copy the file, rename it “shorter Weight of Cloth” and delete five chapters. I have a pretty good idea which ones.

Maybe I’ll publish those orphans here?